Some thoughts on my thirty-third birthday

It is a Wednesday, and I am so happy my birthday falls in the middle of the week. Because this birthday is also an excuse to take the day off work and I prefer having a day off in the middle of the week than a 3-day long weekend. Maybe it is just me, but the permission to disappear is a blessing. 

I am a year older today than one year ago, but isn't that the case for every day of the year? But, birthdays are special. Yes. Of course. 

It is just another day, indeed, but for folks like me with privilege and loads of material blessings, it can also be a day of intentional living. 

Like today, I decided I would live this day, as I would prefer to live all my days. What this means is that I will do things I want to, and not the things I ought to. Just for today. (Fingers crossed, though. Do you also fear things not going the way you planned them when you overplan them?)

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I think I always knew this about myself but putting it down as my philosophy of life only now, well, because I am older and would like it penned down somewhere. 

I don't take my life or myself seriously enough. I am a go-with-the-flow person, a sort of urban vagabond with no destination. 

Make no mistake, I have a decent salaried job, a house, savings and investments, insurance and I pay all my taxes and bills on time. No decent vagabond would boast of such achievement. And yet, I call myself one because I may dispense my responsibilities and duties as adults normally have to, but I take no pride in my so-called "achievements". I go through the motions of it, even as my inner life has its own agenda. 

“Don't wanna sleep, don't wanna die, just wanna go a-travellin' through the pastures of the sky” - Truman Capote

I have few dreams, a lot of needs, and a desire to be happier and content with what is. 

I am lucky because, in my life, there are people whom I love dearly, and who also love me back. What is life without some company and conversation? Indeed, it is the most important thing!

To be able to spend time with and get to know and experience life with a few goodfellas, that is all. 

That is all. 

P.S added on 18 May: I learnt how to belay! So terribly excited and happy. My teacher was a lovely girl named Anita, a selfless soul with the purest smile. Thank you Anita, for always egging me on to climb.